Monday, August 13, 2012

Day + 19

The best way to describe today is to say that it was the opposite of yesterday.
Very little joy and happiness. More pain and sadness.

Unfortunately as last night was ending, Elena started itching.  She was absolutely miserable.  It took three different medications to get it under control.  Overnight, Elena's counts showed she needed platelets. She received these at 4 am, followed by Lasix. Then, the all over itching happened again.  As you can imagine, very little sleeping happened overnight and into this morning.  After more Benadryl and other medications, Elena finally went to sleep.  And she slept and slept and slept.  She took an eight hour nap. She did wake up briefly a few times, but did not get out of bed for eight hours.  Her body obviously needed the rest. When she woke up this evening, she cried.  She said she did not feel like herself. She was still tired and wanted to go home. She did gather some strength and was able to bathe and do one mouthcare and one set of breathing exercises.  We did not walk laps. Today is the first time in 29 days that Elena did not complete 100% of her daily jobs.  She has had enough.  We have had enough.

Last night, we closed the post thanking you for being there for every high and every low.  Little did we know that we'd be experiencing the two back-to-back.

Thank you for still being out there regardless of what kind of day we are having in here.

Sadly, here in the world of childhood cancer, a young 11 year old boy lost his battle.  In a room 20 yards away, he was taking his last breath, as Elena was settling into her much needed rest.

That is our world here.  We are praying you are thankful for your blessings in your life out there.

In Him,
The Tates

"My soul is weary with sorrow; strengthen me according to your word."  Psalm 119:28
Praying tonight that He will fill us with His strength and that His word will bring us comfort.


  1. We are still here amd we are still praying. We are in anguish with you and for you. For everyone that knows Elena cries out on her behalf for her healing. We are weary for her, for you as her family, and we wish your burden was a rock that we could carry for you----In all this I do know that His love endures forever. Lisa F.

  2. We are praying for you everyday and we hope you can be lifted up by the many prayers for Elena and family. Remember God loves and we love you.
    Ted and Jean Lindstedt

  3. Oh how I hate this for you all! Praying so hard for you all every single day - love you all so BIG!! Michelle L.

  4. Praying today will be a much better day. Hang in there angel.
    Many hugs,
    The Ivy's

  5. dear elena we r praying for you every night.we saw your dad at wges curriculum night.we love you so much love,anna and sara hart

  6. I was so sad to hear you had such a rough night. You are such an inspiration to so many. Let your faith keep you focused and strong. Love you all. Jeanne mack

  7. I'm so sorry, my heart is so heavy hearing of Elena's pain, and for that young boy down the hall. Praying for relief today, and more highs than lows. Love, The Slater's

  8. I'm so sorry for such a bad day. We are still praying for more good days and hopes of feeling much better. Keep fighting little princess!! I love you, Aunt Beth

  9. This day makes me sad:( Going with tere will be brighter days for you. We are all prayn in your weakness you will fill the strength of the Lord. And may He be mighty and strong giving you all that you need today to keep pushing on. Love you! Prayn for you! Can't wait to see your smiling face:) The Dravis Fam

  10. Praying all the harder that God will reach down and touch his healing finger upon all of you! You are loved!!

    Greg A

  11. i was so thankful for yesterday and now i am so sad for today. praying that tomorrow is another "up" day....praying that Elena feels good enough to get out of bed....praying that the itching goes away....Know that we are here for you, always. Love, kathryn and Megan

  12. I am so sorry for what you all are going through

    John Leece