How are we feeling?
We are feeling all of these things.
We are also feeling thankful, happy, grateful, and hopeful.
We are thankful that we have friends, family, and strangers praying for us.
We are happy while laughing with friends and with one another.
We are grateful for the words of encouragement that have come in the form of cards, texts, emails, calls, and blog comments.
We are hopeful that even though we do not know what lies ahead, we know there will be a plan.
It feels like we are in the ocean. One moment, we are standing at the water’s edge, feeling ok. The next moment, we are being knocked down by an enormous wave, gasping for air, body aching, struggling to stand up. Then, we find our footing and stand, only to be knocked down again by the next thought, feeling, or action.
It is so strange to have a child who looks good and feels good, yet you know that cancer is in her body.
You have already done everything you could the first time and it hasn't worked.
You have harmed her body and her brain in the process of saving her and it hasn't worked.
What will happen this time?
We heard from Elena's doctor today. We are going to meet with him on Monday, March 5th. He will then share with us our options for treating Elena. He is also going to check Elena's counts to make sure they are not droppping drastically. She will also have an Echo/EKG that day as well. He would like for her to be able to start treatment sometime during the week of March 12th.
While there is still so much that we do not know, we do know that we have time.
Time to think. Time to pray. Time to love. Time to prepare.
We are trusting God to provide exactly what Elena needs in the time she needs it.
We pray that the best possible treatment plan for Elena will become clear and that it will offer the best possible outcome for her.
We pray that you are doing the same.
"Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go for to you I entrust my life." Psalm 143:8