We have been hearing that a lot at our house.
The first day of summer vacation is next Thurday.
What should we be doing? Sleeping late, eating a great breakfast, playing outside.
What will we be doing? We will be headed to the clinic for Elena to have another bone marrow test and a lumbar puncture. After that, she will be admitted into the hospital for a 3-4 day stay to receive a high dose chemo treatment.
Kids are making summer fun to do lists. Elena is making a "What I want to do before my transplant" list.
Kids are anxiously awaiting the pool to open. Elena will not swim in a pool, ocean or lake all summer long.
People are planning their summer vacations, we are planning how to manage an upcoming 30-45 day inpatient hospital stay.
Summer brings with it warm, sunfilled days. Elena will not feel the sun on her face or a warm summer breeze for her entire hospital stay.
Summertime is family time. Our family will be separated. Children under 12 are not allowed in the transplant unit.
Liv is 10.
It's not fair.
It is going to be hard.
It makes us mad.
It is overwhelming.
It is also easy to get stuck here - in the mad, angry, overwhelming part of this.
With your prayers, we will not stay there - stuck.
We will look up.
We will seek him.
Thankfully, we also have reminders from precious friends and family members!
This week we were encouraged by these thoughts.
"Your low times of despair will be followed by times of comfort and hope."
"I know He's holding you and it's my prayer you feel it when you need it most."
"We need to think beyond this summer, think how wonderful next summer is going to be."
We need HIM. We thank Him for your prayers and your never ceasing support. You bring HIM back when we are stuck. Thank You!
"I cry aloud to the Lord; I lift up my voice to the Lord for mercy. I pour out my complaint before him; before him I tell my trouble. When my spirit grows faint within me it is you who knows my way." Psalm 142:1-2